Monthly Archives: April 2011

invisible.

hide away, fade away… curl up in the corner, small, tight so no one sees. whisper, silent… no sound, no voice. you are nothing, invisible — not worthy of being seen, not deserving of attention. hide away, fade away… curled … Continue reading

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Tenebrae.

So, I just got back from a Good Friday service at the Lutheran church I grew up in. I think it’s been a couple of years since I’ve gone, but this particular service is an important part of Holy Week … Continue reading

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I want you to read…but I’m scared.

I had an interesting dream last night. Many times I don’t remember my dreams, or remember only bits and pieces, but sometimes I’ll have these dreams that just stick with me after I wake up, and they always seem to … Continue reading

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Words cannot express…

Sometimes I feel like words are so inadequate to express what I’m feeling. Right now is one of those times. I just can’t explain how happy it makes me to feel like a normal person. To not be consumed with … Continue reading

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no rest.

empty room, loneliness fills like a suffocating cloud… can’t — breathe — can’t — sleep. lie awake, stare at the ceiling. roll over, stare at the wall. think of tomorrow, coming quickly like storm clouds moving across the sky, and … Continue reading

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I’ll settle for watching… No. No, I won’t.

“I’ll settle for watching,” hm? Well, not anymore. Not. Any. More! Because you know what? I am a person. I am real. I exist. I’m not invisible. I’m not unnoticed. I’m not nothing. I’m in an oddly happy and confident … Continue reading

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Once upon a time….someone told me I was stripey.

Well, let’s try this “lighthearted post” thing again. (Seriously, how do I go about doing this? Haha!) So, this morning, I was putting on my socks, and noticing the fact that they were both “stripey socks.” And that reminded me … Continue reading

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This was supposed to be a lighthearted post.

So, it’s been a few days. I haven’t really been sure what to write about. Sometimes I just get tired of being so serious all the time, digging up the past, going over and over and analyzing everything. I mean, … Continue reading

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“You Can’t Take It With You” + my family = high school field biology?

I want to do some writing about the play last night, with my parents coming to see it and all. I’m hesitant to do so, because not only is it personal, it’s also current. It’s a lot easier to write … Continue reading

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Happiness and other feelings.

So, tonight is opening night for “Bus Stop”! I’m a little nervous about getting the sound cues just right, but mostly I’m just excited. I really just love being involved in theater, it makes me so happy! This is definitely … Continue reading

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