Category Archives: Poetry

palette of emotions

a scared child, afraid to trust… pain masked by a smile, a laugh… heart enclosed in walls so high, so thick… outside, He waits, He knocks… softly He speaks: “come.” gently He calls: “my child.” open your heart, shine a … Continue reading

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veiled

I had one of those moments of clarity tonight, where it just hit me that I’m just like anyone else – no different, no less, but equal and part of the group. One of those moments where I get a … Continue reading

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invisible.

hide away, fade away… curl up in the corner, small, tight so no one sees. whisper, silent… no sound, no voice. you are nothing, invisible — not worthy of being seen, not deserving of attention. hide away, fade away… curled … Continue reading

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no rest.

empty room, loneliness fills like a suffocating cloud… can’t — breathe — can’t — sleep. lie awake, stare at the ceiling. roll over, stare at the wall. think of tomorrow, coming quickly like storm clouds moving across the sky, and … Continue reading

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Another journal piece from my relationships project

trying to deal with the effects my family has had on me. trying to identify them is hard enough sometimes. i block my feelings. that’s a major one. and a big obstacle in trying to deal with it too. i … Continue reading

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Some thoughts on God’s love

Note: I wrote this a few months back for my relationships project, but it’s something I’ve really been thinking about lately, and something that is a major struggle for me. …more vulnerability from me online, because I can’t bring myself … Continue reading

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I’ll settle for watching.

On the outside looking in — wishing I was cool enough to belong, but I’ll settle for watching. Always have. When the lights go down, I’m another faceless audience member, and we are all equal for a time. Pulled into … Continue reading

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Untitled

afraid of being wrong, afraid of making mistakes. frustrated because my brain doesn’t want to go there. stubborn, says “nope. not gonna go there.” doesn’t want to remember. doesn’t want to think about it. doesn’t want to be vulnerable, because … Continue reading

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Untitled

Note: I wrote this the day of auditions for the Bathrobe Dramas. I didn’t get a part, but just showing up and auditioning was a big step for me! =) i’m going to play auditions tonight. got tired of sitting … Continue reading

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Survival

It’s hard to be real with others when you hide even from yourself. When you’ve perfected the art of blocking your true feelings so even you don’t know what they are. When you’ve lost yourself, don’t even know what you … Continue reading

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